To hell with ur explanation

ahahaaaa..what a joke..after all this time you finally have an explanation..too bad ..I'm no mood for any of your bullshit anymore. Why now? after I decided to move on with my life and u end up marrying that slut..u finally thought that u need to explain to me why u left me just like that??..come on..no need to act innocent man..grow up..its not like the pain will be less if u explain to me me now..u shud do ur explanation when I ask u before..remember when I put aside all my ego..to go there and ask for ur explanation??..U just ignore me..like I don't even exist in front of your eyes..so now u begging to see me so that u can explain??..go to hell!!..I've beg for ur explanation before..now it's time for u to beg for ur forgiveness that maybe come in 10 more years to come..so happy begging!!

Hati yang kau sakiti

I went to office happily this morning..after all it is the first day working for 2012..but it shortlived..the bullshit..being the real bullshit sent me his wedding invitation. Does it make him less guilty than he already is..It hurt myself so bad that I don't think I can even eat today..thank u dear EX BOYFRIEND..u proof how heartless ur again..And now I'm back to cursing you 1000 times more that u will never knew what happiness meant again starting from now on..I curse u with every breath that I breath..that u never found happiness with her..

Where is my Heart Belong too..

Lately I've been thinking a lot about him..And I realise I'm still very much in love with him..why do I have to feel like this. Whenever I try to forget him the memory become much stronger..why???...why am I still hanging to those stupid memories that obviously meant nothing to him?..

Your Love is a Lie w/ Lyrics [Clean] and Download Link

The Pain Is Killing Me

I just can let go of this feeling..and right now I wonder what is inside his mind..I wonder if I ever cross his mind at all..wonder how could he live happily knowing that he hurt someone so badly and nearly killed her?..I wonder if he can love someone while breaking the other's heart??!!

And I wonder if those time we shared together did he really love me when he say he does?..How could a man break someone heart that terrible by silently getting engaged with another girl..without saying goodbye at all??..and how can he ruthlessly left me just like that??..

Dear..ko tau ka berapa banyak air mata sy jatuh disebabkan ko..berapa banyak malam yg sy tdk tidur, menangis ingatkan ko..kenapa ko langsung tdk fikirkan perasaan sy bila ko bertunang sm perempuan itu??..susah sangat ka utk ko beterus terang sm sy..??..satu tahun masa sy bagi utk ko sayang..satu tahun sy tahan semua kepedihan dan sindiran dr orang2 sekeliling sy..dengan harapan ko kembali pada sy..ko tdk fikir ka betapa malu sy bila org lain yg bagitau sy ko suda tunang??..ko tdk fikir ka mcm mana hancurnya hati ini bila npk gambar ko tersenyum gembira di samping dia??..langsung tiada ka belas dalam hati ko.?..tdk cukup lagi ka penderitaan yg ko bagi dgn sy???..

Mampu ka ko hidup bahagia di atas penderitaan dan air mata org lain??..Akan bahagia ka kehidupan ko bila ko tau yg sy hampir mati disebabkan kecurangan ko..tapi rasanya ko memang dilahirkan untuk membunuh perasaan sy..

Claude Kelly- Your Lies+Lyrics

The end of me and him

His last SMS to me:

oky. apa buli buat. klu benci betul2 just remove my memory in ur heart. klu tak blh pdm lar my no. phon.cos I'm nothing now 4 u k.

( He break my heart and he act like he never done anything wrong. And I wonder ini ka lelaki yang sy jumpa 2 years ago..No!..dulu dia sangat peduli tentang perasaan sy..kenapa sangat mudah ko berubah..:(..)

saki hati!!!

kenapa ko kasi sakit ati sy??..sanggup ko kasi bodo2 sy kn..well i hope ko gembira..tp ingat..satu hari nanti sy mau ko menderita..sy mau ko menangis sampai seolah2 dunia suda kiamat utk ko..masa itu sy mau mjadi saksi penderitaan ko..saya mau ketawa sepuasnya..biar ko rasa sakitnya hati sy atas perbuatan ko..biar ko tau..hati yg ko sakiti ini tidak pernah memaafkan ko..sejuta kali pun ko minta maaf sy tdk akan memaafkan ko..selamanyaaaa..!!!!..J.P..SY BENCIIII KO SELAMANYAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!